Sometimes it is a lonely existance. If you're feeling suicidal, you really need to go to an ER, or something. I know what it is to struggle with finances, it's horrible, but somehow, you will make it through. Good luck.

I can't go to the ER. Last time I was in the Psych unit in April my Psychiatrist told me if I come back within the year he was going to get a court order to put me in Adult Foster Care.

I'm sorry you are having a tough time!!

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Maybe that's what you need? I just think that it's dangerous grounds, where you are. Do you have someone that you can call?

Don't have anyone to call. I refuse to go back to foster care though. I'll be okay, I'm feeling a bit better talking to people on here.

That's good. You need to find something that keeps your mind occupied, and makes you feel better. Being on here usually helps me too.

gawd damn , i like feathers replys

lonely existance, go for the help do what you have to, i agree on all points

Welcome to ds hope you find what you need here for help. Feathers is a nice girl and smart too has given you some good advice. And sich feeling any better tonite?

Although my situation is different, I too get depressed when I begin thinking too much. I am not sure what Adult Foster Care is but it sounds like it is something you don't like. Keep bugging the mess out of the community mental health folks. Call several times a day if you have to. Call around to your local churches and find out what you can do to get some help throught them. Many have food banks, clothing etc. Next if you aren't physcially disabled maybe you could pick up a few handyman jobs or yard jobs for cash. That will not only help your finances but exercise is good for your health too. There is help available for you, you just have to be an activist. Is there a Volunteers of America in your area. They are great too. Good Luck.

Sorry to hear you are down on your luck. Have you thought about doing some gardening for cash. With winter comming your way there will be lots off weeds. And with the trees dropping all their leaves mabe raking lawns for cash. I had trouble working for others so I started my own gardening business. Keeps you fit and is great working outdoors :)) Goodluck I hope your situation changes soon:))

Just wanted to thank everyone for the warm welcome and concern. I don't know what I'm going to do yet, but at least now I have some more ideas.

Adult Foster Care is terrible in my opinion. Answering the question about what is it. I was placed in one on a court order a few years ago. I had no right and no freedom. We had to be in bed by 9pm and up by 6am. Breakfast was at 9am and we had to stay in our rooms until then. B-fast consisted of oatmeal plain and a cup of instant coffee. After b-fast we had chores to do until lunch. Lunch was a bologna sandwich and a small glass of kool aid. Then we had to sit in our rooms until dinner at 5pm. Dinner 3 night/week was a plate of mac and cheese and 3 fishsticks. 1 night it was spaghetti. 1 night macaroni salad. Then on the weekends we would have meatloaf and chicken. Water was served with dinner. We weren't allowed to have any drinks or snacks between meals. If you needed to go to the bathroom you had to ask for a key. We were allowed to have a tv in our rooms but there was no cable. Radios were not allowed. Any literature had to be approved before coming into the house. The only time you were allowed outside was if you smoked or if you had chores to do outside. Needless to say I ended up smoking a lot. You were allowed one phone call a day. If you disturbed the staff between 4pm and after dinner there were grave consequences. Such as losing the right to have dinner and extra chores. You were allowed one shower everyother day, but if you had bo at meal time you were asked to leave. Regardless of what the weather was like. After a month at this facility I was forced to go to a day program called crossroads. This was to train people to do simple jobs. It was designed more for those with developmental disabilities. I enjoyed going because the rules were more lax and I was able to sign myself out for a couple of hours a day to go shopping.

Adult Foster Care was hell for me and I never intend to go back. If they ever obtain a court order for me to go back to one. I will run and if caught I will end my life. I feel I was stuck in a prison with my only crime being that I was ill and tried to kill myself.

There have bee some great suggestions for you here. Is there a DBSA chapter in your area? It would give you someone to talk to that understands. Our local PEACE, Inc. chapter has a foodbank also. I'm also on disability and got Medicare offered to me. It's not alot, but it's something to cover my medical and prescriptions. Of course, there's the awful Medigap. WalMart has a terrific $4 prescription plan. Ask them for a list of what's on the plan and then ask your MH provider to prescribe off the list. If they're threatening to reposses your car - sell it or turn it in. You will still owe something on it, but it will be less stressful if you are in control of the reposessoin. A lot of the local charities take in cars as donations. Maybe you could negotiate with one of them for a clunker to get you around. Hope this helps.
peace, t

Oh, one more thing - when people as me what I do I tell them I'm retired. Saves a lot of crap trying to explain.
peace,t