Hi, I'm new to this site, but not mental illness. I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. In 2001 I made a serious attempt on my life that put me in the hospital and gave me some permanent liver damage. The problem is for months now I've not been able to sleep much. I recently got divorced and am struggling with my finances. Trying to get by on just a disability check. I am getting sued by a credit card company. The bank is getting ready to reposess my car. I don't have any food in my house to feed my kids when they come over. Which is everyday. The Michigan welfare office won't help me with food and took my medicaid away. I can't get my therapist with community mental health to return my calls so I can make a new appointment. And I guess it is all just really getting to me tonight. It scares me that I have had a few suicidal thoughts. That is definately not what I want to do. What I want is to have my financial situation get better, but I just don't see any light at the end of the tunnel right now. I sit at home lonely night after night wishing that I could find a friend. When I do meet someone they ask me what I do. When I tell them that I am on disability they ask what for. When I'm honest and tell them that I have Bipolar disorder most of them walk away. It feels like a lonely miserable existence right now.
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