Do you know what im tired of? Im tired of not knowing what is wrong with me. Why I do the things i do or feel the way I feel. As I have said before my GP diagnosed me BP a few years ago after I took a BP quiz i have yet to see another doctor who knows more about it. Im lucky to be able to vent to my fiance but I know she needs a break sometimes. I am so close to my family but as Ive said before my siblings dont know im BP nor do I wish to tell them. My mom and I are so close but since she has known about my BP anytime i call her upset in any way she asks if I have taken my meds. I know shes not trying to be mean but it really pisses me off and hurts my feelings! Arent I still allowed to have bad days? I feel like my mom is so worried im going to lose it or something. I have to find a doc now that im getting benefits and figure out if I really have BP and if so what type and if im on the right meds. I just feel lost and scared.
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