OK, so I'm finding it very "unfair" that along with being BP, I also have all of the other issues that have taken up residence in my head. I feel like a phony because most of the people that know me, love me. They love being around me. They are always waiting for me to say something funny. And all I can think now, is... "Dude, you're looking up to one F@cked up chick!". Not only are we Bp, but we're binge eaters, and alcoholics, and drug addicts, and all of that has it's own set of things to deal with. I don't want to seem to be whining, I just think IT REALLY SUCKS THAT SO MANY DAMN THINGS ARE WRONG WITH ME! I'm going to be in therapy til the day I die apparently!
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