Hi all....I'm writing this to just get it out and perhaps get some insight into behaviors. I met my boyfriend 3 years ago while in a manic state. If you asked me now I couldn't tell you what attracted me to him. I was in such a state of mania I was having unprotected sex with multiple partners, spending money I didn't have, taking out payday loans left and right, just out of control. Over the last 3 years I've been medicated and go to therapy. I now see my bf differently. He's very negative, abrasive, just all around not a pleasant person. I've grown to love the few things that are good about him....very few. The way I look at it is this: I have 3 choices, stay and be depressed and miserable, leave, or stay and find a way to make myself happy in this relationship. He's been good in the way that he's supportive in things that I do. Such as I've just had weightloss surgery and he has been helping me more, taking my new lifestyle into consideration in all things. So he can be caring and considerate at times. I know I cannot change him. But there has to be a way to be happy in this relationship. Any insight is greatly appreciated.
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