Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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sometimes i feel like it is nearly impossible to deal with my mania. during my manic episodes, i don't feel like anything is wrong. only when i come down from my high mood, do i realize that i really made some mistakes.

i currently see a psychiatrist and therapist, and currently take medication, but my impulsive behavior is still running my life. and this is something that i am tired of dealing with.

i feel like i spend most of my time apologizing for all the effed stuff i do. do others feel like no matter how much help you get, your illness continues to run your life?

i could really use your responses, today is one of those days i feel like none of this is worth it anymore.
chilvr
chilvr
mastermind, i took a look at your meds, and i am wondering if you have had a lithium blood level? you may need a higher dose to manage your symptoms. your meds should (hopefully) get you to a point where your illness is not running your life.

that said, we all do things that we need to apologize for. sometimes i do so much crap that it's impossible to apologize and i hate myself for it. i hate the depression side of this illness more than the manic even though the manic has cost me much more. but i live in the depression.

enough about me...your impulsive actions can be controlled, tell your pdoc, he should be directing you in this area.
hugs and puppy kisses....
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Hi, I am sorry you didn't get more responses from people, and I know mine is a really late one. Yes, I too feel like it is hard to get to a point where I am in control and not my bipolar. I do not experience mania, only hypomania, but I do make plenty of stupid choices and mistakes when I am depressed! It is good that you are doing a lot for yourself. You are doing the things that you need to do...it may be that now you are just waiting to find the right medication to help you turn the corner in your life! Keep fighting bud, I wish you the best.
e4now
e4now
hi and thank you for sharing...i feel my BP controls my life even with the meds...i know at any moment i could snap and that scares me to death...im in therapy, pysical and mental i just want a happy medium...unsure if i'll ever get there but i'm putting up a good fight :) hope things level out for you! best wishes!!
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