Okay so heres the deal, this isn't exactly about bipolar but whenever i need support i always come to all of you, so i need some words of support in this as well. my husband and i have fought like cats and dogs, last winter the fights started to become physical on both of our parts. things have been a lot better, but he still makes little comments here and there to cut me down. its like i'm a nuisance to him if i'm not a stepford type of wife. i have to earn his love. he doesn't see the good in me, in who i am. its only if i do something for him. i left him last winter for a good three weeks but i couldn't make it on my own. i am so tired of being with someone who sees me as a worthless sack of skin. He monitors my spending like crazy, i have no independance and i am not allowed to make any financial decisions, even with my own pay checks. i know when i'm manic i rack up huge bills so thats why. however, last night he started to become verbally abusive and i lashed out on him physically. i don't know what else to do with my feelings when he hurts me, i cannot work things out with him bc he's not receptive to talking about problems and things just stay pent up inside of me. i think this is a major trigger for my depression. i don't know what to do.
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