ok so just a couple things maybe i could have somehelp with !! i noticed that a lot of you guys are very familiar with meds/ I have been extremly adamant not to take meds ever since i was diagnosed in 2004. BUT up until beginning of 2008 i wasnt taking meds because i was only seeing the manic side of this bitch. basically i thought i was special and didnt need meds to "change" myself so anyways from 2004 to 2008 i was livign my life quite normally , socially capable had a few jobs dated a bunch of guys an was hospitalized probably 1 or only twice a year.( probably induced by drugs...ex. cocaine ocasionlly meth) it was fine and relatively stable ! haha but what im geting at is i was hit with a huge depression at the start of 08 ( after all of 2007 using cocaine and obviously the cnsequence of those actions)and began to fight it from all ends holisticaly and it did work a bit i guess but i am not the same person i used to be..(happy outgoing wild child) i want to go on antidepressants and i havent had a manic episode since oct 07 and that was the only episode i had that year ! would going on antidepressants possibly make me manic again or could i level it off with a mood stabilizer and not feel like a freaking robot?? i just have never been n meds and am curious to see if it might give me that extra push i need now. because i never needed them before and i stil dont realy bleve in them but what do i have to loose....and was also tinking my bp sounds a lot different then everyones on here. lately i just dont have any motivation and its just been going on straight for the past year, could i have been misdiagnsed because of my drug problem ..before? btw i have not done drugs for over year and a half and plan to keep it that way...thanks in advance everyone !!
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