/i dont know what is going on I just have completley lost myself in this mess of a life. I have no control. I dont even know how long it is going to take unitl I get fustrated and restless typing and have to walk away. I cant focus or do anything right. I just want to scream at the top o my lungs rightnow. I am crawling under m skin and i just want outof it. I think i need a trip to the hospital to get myself straight. My fidgets are uncontrolable and pissing me off. I want to go take enought sleeping pills to knock myself out for 24 hours but thats not a possability rightnow. I want to shve my head on top of it so I dont keep pulling on my hair. I litterally feel like I am going crazy. I cant stand myself.. I don;t know what to do.. I cant stand to be in this house another mnute. I am going crazy!!!!!!!!
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