I feel so lost in life right now. I finally got the okay to go back to work yet I havnt given the note to my boss yet. I dont know why. I'm kinda just paralyzed just having no idea what I want to do or who I am anymore. I could go back to work finally and thats all I wanted. Now I have the chance and I'm scared. Of what? I dont even know. I'm just scared. Cuz technically I have another full month to be off doing nothing and still have my daycare. So part of me says to use that month to its full advantage and take this time to try even harder to figure out what it is I want.But the other part of me says your doing nothing. Your just bored and still not finding any direction in life so its time you go back to work and atleast help with the financial debt we have. And then yet another part of me is saying I'm still feeling really down so I should be stable and feeling better before taking on work but then again the other side says your down because your doing NOTHING. And I'm just wasting my life away. Then its time to register for summer classes. Part of me wants to take a few summer classes to catch up with everything I lost with missing this last semester. But another part of me says not yet. Too just wait and enjoy the summer and then go back to school. So I'm just all together lost and confused.With all aspects of my life. I dont even know what to do. I'm just paralyzed in fear to move forward with anything right now. I dont even know why really. But I cant seem to make even small decisions.
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