I have been doing so well lately and for the past few days I have been getting depressed. Last night I went on a shopping "spree." I look at what I bought and I'm like "what?" I bought a lot of gift bags and paper and such and I feel like I don't have anyone to send a gift to. In fact, I don't feel like I have any friends at all, except one, my best friend and she lives in another state and is very sick. So I don't want to burden her b/c she is so ill and most of the time she is so medicated she can't understand me. I know it's hard to be friends with a BP person. My co-workers know that there's something "not clicking" in my head but I feel like they think it's because I am selfish or trying to be something I'm not or simply "crazy". They ignore me or just critize me. Whatever I am doing, to them it's the wrong thing. They jump in my business when I am doing something because they think I am taking too long. I know I am slower than I used to be before all my hospital stays and shock therapy and meds, but I can do the job. They are so mean. All of this depression might be from my job. I've tried to just let it "roll off my back but I just feel alone. I have been isolating myself in my house and don't go anywhere. My husband tries to help, but he doesn't know what to do. I was so mean to him last night, I threatened to leave him. I honestly like my job, but dislike the people. What do I do?
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