hey everyone I'm back!!! at least for a visit...maybe for good, we are seeing how it goes. I want to thank everyone that has been supportive to me and to Chris. it has been a rough road and still is. I dont remember what all happened but they tell me that will come with time. As to how I feel, well i still hurt all over and my insides are still messed up and i now get to take meds for my heart. But when you look at what could have been meds arent so bad. I am so so happy to be back and I think I remember just about all of you however there do appear to be some new people on my list...I think.. just please I want everyone to know that I am so sorry for the pain and worry that I caused. none of what happened was anyones fault. I made the choice to do what I did. I just wish that one of my closest and dearest friends on DS would talk to me...I understand she isnt in a good way but I want us to be friends. I hope she reads this and understands how I feel. I miss her so and want her to be a part of my life again...though she thinks she isnt good for me..shouldnt I be the judge of that? anyways wanted to let everyone know I am home at least for a bit and that I love you all.
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