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is telling me to slit my throat. over and over and over and over and over.
i tried to phone my boyfriend and his phones off and he said hes dead.

i went to phone my mum and it said she will crash on her way home if I phone her.

ive phoned the doctor and i can go there at twenty to nine

he said if i don't do it now, i will never get rid of him and that my mum will die aswell as glyn.

somebody help me.
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Is 'he' your subconscious?
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no. hes not me. i dont know who he is.

the only reason i think hes here is coz he was miserable and killed himself and he likes that im miserable to. he wants a friend.
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911 or whatever your emergency is in GBR
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Yeah, get yourself to A+E.
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drive there? or ring them? i cant see. i cant stop crying. he keeps saying shell die.

i dont want her to die.

what if she dies?
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call them and get them to come get you, quickly.
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She won't die. No one is going to die.

Ring your crisis team, which NHS area are you in?
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Beg a neighbor to take you to the doctor, or call the doc again and let them know you are afraid of driving like this.

If you think you can drive though, go straight to the doc. Better to be wreck in the waiting room than being at home with the ghost.
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Ring 999 now then go round to a neighbour. Don't be on your own but please try to rationalise...you are ill...there is no he...everything will be alright if you get the help you need. Hugs.
love Suze x
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While you are waiting for the ambulance..."he" is evil, bad and stupid and you are just not going to buy into "his" crap, right?
We are all currently cyber beating "him" up. He can't even touch you!
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oh.. i found it. jus wnted to tell you all i got myself to doctor, after some drama, but got there, got some valium for last night and today while they decide if i need to be admitted. there are no beds in the local hospital but there are in the rlly scary criminally insane one or ones way out of town. i was supposed to have been contacted this morn but havent been. but my mums home and i have some meds that should help a bit i nthe short term. x fingers.

sorry for disappearing.

does anyone else get this?

like, he is always there, but sometimes its like he takes over entirely and others i am strong enough to get rid of him or shut him up. its rlly weird.
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nah...sounds a bit like schizophrenia...the command voice, I mean.
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So glad you are ok .You are not alone I have heard and seen things as well it is so frightening some times.I hope you get the help you need quickly so you will feel better.:)
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I've had delusions but not been aware they're delusions at the time, if you get me. This is different is all.
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i dno what it is. its horrible. i didnt think id be so... i dno, aware, if it was schizophrenia. or if it were anything i dno. nothing makes sense anymore.

thanks christih
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