Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Could I have let my friends and family know more about how I feel? Today I went and told them all that I was in bad shape. I feel like everybody just ignores that I am like this. I was not looking for attention. I just went to them and laid it out that I really need help, and they all just smiled and acted like I was being my silly old self telling jokes. I even went to one of my best friends and told him and he just kept playing his video game adn wouldnt listen to me.

If my mother was around maybe she could have helped me but I probably wouldnt have told her anyways cause I dont want to worry anyone. I feel so weird, it is like being scared and not scared at the same time. I thought that I actually set up a netowrk to help me, I thought that I could use it or they would notce. I wanted to hang out with my brother or dad and maybe get hugged by someone I loved, but I dont know what. I hope that tonight isnt going to be expensive. I probably need to call a cab and go somewhere that I cant be foudn. BUt I wish that I had a warmer coat.
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oh dear, I am sorry your family couldn't hear you...could you write them?
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Where are you? You should go home if you're not there. People here care, you're not alone, we notice.
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that may be the case but, this place is imaginary to me. I sit here waiting at this point.

I am at my house,
Shelly4
Shelly4
I am so sorry that you did not recieve what you needed from your family. If this is the first time you have shared with them their reaction was probably because they really didnt know how else to respond. It took a while for me to get my mother and brothers to take me serious. They just dont understand or get it for a while. Dont stop talking to them, eventually they will take you serious. Trust me I am a real person and not imaginary. I care about you and most of us do because we understand you and support you. If you were here right now I would give you a huge hug. Hugs
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They have known for years now. Even when I was in the hospital they didnt seem to beleive it, so I dont think that they ever will.
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that's fucked up.
Shelly4
Shelly4
Have you tried having your therapist talk to them? Have you given them printed information about the disorder to help them understand? Have you suggested ways that they can support you and told them what you "need" from them when you are experiencing different things? All these things are important to help them understand. People dont always just "know" what to do we have to tell them. Sorry you are having such a rough time. I know the feeling, I have been there. Hugs
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I think that I am going to buy a new TV because my old one is breaking. I would go and drive somewhere but I just traquilzed myself with some old meds and beer. I didnt know what the effects were going to be, but it seems like it has been a positive and bad thing. I dont feel so self-destructive but I am a zombie. Maybe I will call someone and get that TV.

I cant tell where I am right now on my personal 1-10 scale. This is the first time that I havent been able to identify the exact state of my emotions.
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I feel you since I get the same (can you even call it this) reaction from my family and friends most of the time. I have been accused of "trying to get attention" when I have felt suicidal or when I have been manic enough to feel invincible and be self-destructive. They say they notice these extreme mood shifts and odd behavior, but they don't want to hear it when I need them to pony up and help me, or at least be there.

Yeah ... even a manic episode in front of my entire immediate family and some neighbors (an episode of mostly blackouts and I had to rely on any bit of info that was told to me) didn't even give them a clue. Good luck to all of us on this acceptance issue ...

and here's that hug you needed. I know it's not the same as a real one but I hope it helps.
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