Hey guys ..i need to ask my friends here if after the mood stabelisers kicked in ..has anyone began to feel no feelings ? I know that my anxiety can be so bad i get suicidal .So i will never stop takeing meds.im on lamictal,lexapro and lamictal oh yeah ..and klonopin .i havent been able to sympothise with anyone .. i dont even care to cry (which i think is healthy) I was dx a christmas of last year ..bout 6 months ...and i know that my doc has plans to eventually have me up to 200 mg of lamictal ..so should i assume that i will get even number.? I have learned that i have to worry about me and not others ..but i feel i am not being as nice as i used to be because i just dont feel nice anymore and than in turn is hurting my family .My biggest fear is being abandoned by my family , because i have never meet my father that has alot to do with my fears of not being loved ..or everyone leaving me .Im rambling now ....hmmm feeling alittle better..just gotta let it out sometimes .Ive tried therapy 3 times ..maybe they were all not for me ..or maybe its something else .I have gone to anger management and it made me angry when i was there ,because everyone was yelling ..which in turn makes me nervous and start yelling .So now all i have is my med management guy and he is pill happy ..Guess im tryin to say im gonna snap if something doesent change ..Thanks for readin :)
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