I know I have been ill for quite some time due to med reaction and I fight off suicidal thoughts at least a hundred times a day for the last 11 months. I am hanging on by a thread and I am lost right now. My fiance has told me today that we have to split up and I can barely even take care of myself as it is. I would not have been in this mess if I would've followed my gut instinct and stopped the meds after they were making me feel sick. I am so screwed up right now suicide looks like the only realistic way to fix this situation. I am sorry that I haven't killed myself already and let some people down on here. I need the strength to get this done with but part of me wants to live but not in the condition this med reaction has left me. I tried to cry today but it was almost useless I am so sorry I took the meds prescribed by my previous dr. my life has been ruined and I am ready to close the lid and going to the hospital is useless since they sent me home while I was having the reaction and they could have saved my kidneys at least. The last thing I need right now is more meds and that is all the hospital will do.
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