so i guess my meds are working, and thats a good thing? right? what if i were to say i miss the mania sometimes the highs were so fun and i felt so free and active, the lows let me into myself let me see who i was, im not complaining im just saying that sometimes i wish i could just be me. the person i normally am without all the meds masking my pain and problems and flaws. i wanna be able to live a life like everyone else just going through day to day not knowing whats ahead. i know my mania isnt a safe or healthy one,i get aggressive angry suicidal hyper active and uncontrollable but isnt that who i am? arent those feelings a part of my makeup? shouldn't i embrace them and live with them as though they were normal? idk. just thinking about it
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