My mum works full time and my dads disabled. When my mum'sworking i'm like a part time carer for my dad. i don't mind at all but its so hard watching someone i love soo much dying infront of me. when it used to get too much i would cut myself. hoping the physical pain would take away the heartbreak. but i've gotten better at dealing with it, even though i just cry all the time. i often feel like i'm in a daze and sometimes i can be soo happy and cheerful but then someone says something to me and i might take it the wrong way or my mum tells me to be nice to dad as "we won't have him with us for much longer" and i get soo sad i just wish i was dead.