Bipolar Disorder - Teen Support Group
This community is dedicated to teenagers struggling with bipolar disorder. Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. Talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, and learn from others' experiences
i really dont. im fighting so hard for what? nothing. yes i have my happy moments but then i dont and im sick of every little thing pissing me off and me going way overboard when it really isnt a big deal at all. so i went to the doctor the other day and he said that i might have ADHD as well as being Bipolar im like fucking great another disorder in my fucked up life. im already going through depression and dealing with this do i really need another one? sometimes i think life just hates me. i feel like i have no one to talk to about it i dont know anyone who is Bipolar so none of my friends or family really gets whats going on in my life right now. yeah i know its not the end of the world or anything that drastic to most people but it is to me. i used to be tottaly against taking meds to "fix" something. i dont think it works. and my meds really havent done shit for me so i still believe that. suicidal thoughts are killing me i just dont want to be here anymore. no one understands that. they all think its for a stupid reason but its not stupid to me. im just sick of being so ugh i dont even know what to call myself anymore. ive been feeling like this for three days straight everyday. like i just want to die and get it over with. but i cant do that i want to but i cant. im not seeking attention i just need someone to talk to that understands me. someone that wont judge me and make me feel guilty about how I feel.
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
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My ENT sent me for more tests last week...one where they had me lie back in a chair, with blacked out goggles on so I couldn't see while they administered water into my ears one at a time ( first warm, then room-tempurature, then cold) while they video taped my eyes and asked me questions to determine how cognizant I was... This test went HORRIBLY. They were about 20 seconds or so into...
We all feel the need to escape sometimes too, and life is overwhelming! If at all possible, try to write down every nice thing people have told you about yourself, and read it OFTEN!!! My daughter is beautiful and smart, yet it is very hard for her to believe that. It's all part of the disorder. If you don't have a counselor, FIND ONE! At first she didn't want to go, then she realized the counselor would listen, help her and accepter her no matter what!
There is no judgement here from me, ever. I am a firm believer that God put each of us here for a specific purpose. You have one too! Maybe this horrid spat in your life will lead you to find yours. I've always found that when my life seems at its worst and I think that there's no purpose, all of a sudden God will put something in my path that makes my life better than I had ever imagined it would be.
Keep finding ways to love yourself, and do something right now that will make you happy!
All of the disorders seem to be adding on.
Hell, I have bi-polor, major depression, AdHd, Anxiety, insomnia..blah fucking blah..But its nothing to be ashamed of. Yea you have every right in the world to Hate it, question WHY you, yet this isn't what you need to dwell on. I respect you for even posting this. Because the truth is you had the choice NOT to. Just to go on with your life pretending as if nothing was wrong. Feeding yourself lies but you didn't. You are loved and there are ways to get past this. Its a nightmare and you have to remember that it will be over eventually. It wont happen on its own though. you have to fight. you have to want to get better. It wont be easy. not at all but its not impossible. Find ways that you can cope with it. If you like to write, write a whole friggin novel. if you like to draw, sketch the hell out of that scetchpad. sing, talk, dance, read, listen to music, play sports...there are so many things you can do that can get your mind of all the bullshit of this society. Good luck love, and email me if you want to.