about 2 weeks ago i tried to run away from my house. i'd walked 8 miles and it was dark so i decided to stop at my grandmothers house. i've always loved my grandmother and we've always gotten along very well. i was talking to her about something and she brought up me being bipolar but in her languge she told me i was mental and sick and all those things people like us really don't wanna hear. we started fighting about why i was the way i am with my sister and all that stuff. it wasn't good i was crying and things were just getting worse. i got my mom to come pick me up even thought i ran away i didn't care i just wanted to be out of there and i'd do whatever i had to to make sure i did. so i convinced her to pick me up. she says things to me to make me feel terrible like she'll be gone soon and i'm breaking her heart.whenever i go to her house i just sit in the car and ignore her as she smiles and waves while she says 'hi kendra-paige!' she pretends it didn't happen but at the same time she agnowlges that it happend. i can't move on. i feel like i can't say i'm sorry because i embarrased about the way that i act and i just can't start over again. i just want my grammie back can somebody please please help me?
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