I've just noticed that allot of peole on here exert allot of angry manic episodes. I myself do on occasion but normally most of my Manic states are primarily Euphoric. I like to call them power trips simply because thats how i'm feeling when I have one. I feel powerful. Where I can be anything I wanna be and do anything I wanna do and It will be awesome! and my life will be great! I usually start raving about insane ideas that "normal" people see as just plain crazy...An example would be like the other day I was in a manic euphoric state and it was one that lasted quite a long time. I decided it would be a good idea to live a life where I didnt consume anything, I made rules to my new life and decided that I could only purchase my absoulte necessities over the next year, I wasnt allowed to have sex and anything I did consume, any packaging it came in I had to turn into a work of art. I decided that I WOUlD not recycle as it was lame and that I would REUSE everything and never throw anything away. I guess I decided i was a hippie? cuz i even went as far as to dread my hair.. I decided that I was a better person and that I was awesome and that by doing this whole thing I would somehow be solving my problems?..how i do not know but i believed it and was convinced at the time. After that I went into a state of depression for a good 2 days. does anyone else have insane episodes like that? or am i just really insanely weird?
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