Ok well about a three months ago I met the most amazing guy ever. We dated for about a month an some odd weeks. Then we ended up breaking up. We had a great relationship up until about the second week. The first week was great. Then the second week is when we started having problems. We started fighting an he said I wasn't acting the way I was when we started dating. I knew he was right. I do that all the time. I act like a completely different person then I really am. Its because I don't like the way I am. I thought if I acted different then he would give me a chance. He told me if I would of just acted like myself he would still have dated me. As the days went by I started being mean. I started letting the bio polar show through. I am on medication for it but I struggle a lot with it. I am on a very high dose of medication an the doctors are trying to figure out what more to do. Anyways, We have been broke up for about a month now but we both want to get back together but I am scared. I dont want to hurt him again. I love him. I am scared I am going to be mean an he is gonna leave me for good. I have absolutely no clue what to do. This is kind of why I signed up for this. I think if I maybe talk about my feelings an emotions on here it will help me so this way I wont take it all out on him. I don't want to lose him again. I don't know if I should go to counseling or what. So please if any one has any kind of advise can you please give it to me. thanks.
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