I've been through some really bad episodes, and for awhile now I've been "better". But tonight I broke down. The past never seems to be far from my mind and the relationships my BPD has ruined haunt me. I've lost my best friends, people I thought would always be there, either because they couldn't understand or I was too afraid to open up. I'm so tired of not having a friend to turn to. My mother has been amazing but she'll never truly understand how much pain I am in. How can I find people that will understand how hard this is? I'm so afraid I'll never find someone who will love me and put up with my emotions.
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