My dad dies suddenl 2 years ago on the day afer Easter. It was the worst thing I have ever felt and I think about it almost daily. The thing is pretty much from the day that it happened I have bottled everything up inside of me and done my very best to ignore it as much as possible. My problem is that I have been unable to talk about it with anyone, not even my fiance. Why can't I let people in on my grief and the fact that it is still very hard on me. I can't even think of sitting through a church service without crying and now my mom is going to be really angry at me for not going to church today and I won't even be able to tell her why I couldn't go! Everyone I love and shares in my grief is in the dark about how I feel, I guess I just don't know how to open up. . .what am I suppose to do?
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