i dont know where to start, my auntie has always wanted a baby but has never been successful. So i donated my eggs to her, the only thing i could possibly do to help her. She became pregnant from the IVF cycle with my eggs and the pregnancy was going so well. however, at 24 and a half weeks she went into labour :( the doctors managed to delay the birth for a week but then the babies were born. Two perfect twin boys. Sadly, the boys were very poorly :( and at two days old one of them passed away :( i cried so so much and spent all the time i could at the hospital speaking to the other twin, talking of anything... plans for the future. Willing him to keep on fighting. But two days ago (4 days after the firs twins death) the second twin passed away. He was so poorly and just couldn't fight anymore. I was at the hospital when this happened and i cried when i was told, and before turning the machines off i was lucky enough to hold his hand and talk to him. He looked at me and its all i see when i close my eyes. but since we left, i havent been able to cry. I feel numb and empty. Why can't i cry? I feel so heartless
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