I miss you so much. I feel like I am dying inside. Nothing helps. Nothing seems to be able to pull this blanket of depression off of my back. I want you here. So badly. More than anything I have ever wanted anything in my entire life...I want you here to hug and love. My ears long to hear your voice and I just want to crawl away somewhere and whither on the outside the way my soul has done on the inside. No one understands. I don't know who I am anymore. I have always defines who I am by the reflection of myself I saw in your eyes. Who am I now? Who?!
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