I am new here and found this site trying to find someone to talk to. I had a "friend" of ten years abandon me in August, leaving me in debt, then on October 31, 2006 I lost my beloved 20 year old son, my whole reason for living. Then on December 11, 2006 I lost my mother, my support. I have felt like my whole world has crashed, that everything I believed in and loved is gone. I raised my son as a single mother and he only had the last two years of his life with his dad. He had become a man and I was very proud of him. He was even going to ask his girlfriend to marry him. Now that is all gone, I have no other children, so I feel this big void within me. It is so hard for me to believe that anyone understands that loss. And this happened after the one person I thought I could always turn to in a time of trouble just walked away, then the only other support I had, my mother, died a horrible death in December right before Christmas. I need people, I don't seem to have any left, I don't like feeling alone, and I don't like not being able to share. I go through each day just pretending that everything is alright so that no one else will feel bad, but deep inside I am so sad, angry and lost. I just want to share so that I can be helped and help others.
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