Honey, you sound depressed. Of course people would miss you, just like you miss your friend. It's hard losing a friend at such a young age. You can't make sense of it. It's a little different if the person had grown old and it was their time, Sometimes things happen and we don't understand why. There are no answers only questions that go unanswered. Though your friend is not here he would not want anything to happen to you. I'm sure your family would be devastated, along with the friends. Hang in there. Talk to us here we will listen. You might want to consider therapy if you aren't already attending it. I wish you the best. Just take life one day at a time. You have so much more life to live and though it may seem bad right now it won't always.
Hugs-Barb

nothing seems to go right. and therapists don't help. i've seen one twice, and if anything, they made things worse. i don't know what to do.

I know the feeling; I wonder the same thing. I hope you can move on sometime... (HUGS) Kristine

I'm sorry therapy isn't working for you, and I know it doesn't work for everyone. Back a number of years ago I went through a very dark and scary time, I saw a therapist. I wanted him to fix me, and fix me NOW. Unfortunately he explained it doesn't work that way. I was the one who had to do all the work and it wasn't easy, but I made it through with his guidance. I still have times when I struggle but I have managed to learn coping skills that help and I manage to get through it. I know it's not easy. Have patience with yourself. You will get there.
Hugs- Barb

But so many other things go wrong. I feel so numb. I can't be patient anymore. I've held on for years. Now I feel like I'm just slipping away. I'm being pulled away with the tide, and everytime I swim, I fall down farther.

Spring.... I relate to what you are saying. Since my Mom passed away in October, I feel like if I wasn't here, the only one who would miss me is my cat.

Yes, hon, many would miss you. For real. One of the signs of grief is that sometimes we think others don't care. Most of the time they do, they just are really uncomfortable talking about death. My grief counselor told me this is all too common in the fast paced world we live in. I always think of the movie "It's a Wonderful Life" - when he's tinking of killing himself, and his Guardian angel showed him how the lives of all those he loved would have been worse had he not been born. We are all connected to others in ways we can't imagine. I met a lady at the bookstore today who told me I was beautiful. I wanted to cry s I feel so not that. But that one moment, with a stranger, made me think this world is an amZing place. Right now I care much more about how I feel , which is prety shitty, than the way I look. But that one compliment made me realize that there are many kind, aring peole in this world.......never forget that you matter, no matter how crappy you feel. Love you, Nancy

Dear Spring -
I don't know your age but I do know the feeling. I have no siblings. My family (cousins, etc.) - forget it. I was my Mom's caregiver until she died in 2007. I was her life, and she was EVERYTHING to me but I didn't realize it. Then, I ran to nursing home to see to my Dad's needs (he left Mom & me) until he died in 2008. There's no one for me. Who will care for me the way I did for Mom - in a hospital bed at home, if and when that time comes? They'll throw me away, and nobody will care or visit me. I don't even have (technically) an emergency contact. I so know the feeling - and worry about it, too.

My name is vader and i am the founder of the sibling support group.Dear..you still are young and you sound a bit depressed and I havent sent e mails for a week because my aunt is sick but I would miss you and please realize this...sometimes things do happen everyday that we cant control.Do not let the stresses of living and what is going on now depress you.Always e mail me if you want to t alk.I will get back to you as soon as I can.