I feel so guilty for what happened to my son. the doctors kept saying I made all the right decisions and that know one could have predicted this but I feel like I was supposed to protect Brady and I have let him down some how. I should have been able to save him, keep him safe. I can't seem to shake the feeling that I could have done something more. it's my fault. I'm the one who consented to the surgery. I should have insisted they do the pre-op blood work (they haven't done it for years now, but he had to have it for his MRI?) I called to ask why not and they said it wasn't necessary. the doctors said the leukiemia wouldn't have been detected because it was probably dormant until the steriod was given. I don't know.....I'm grasping at straws I guess. how do I deal with the guilt I feel when everyone tells me I did everything I could, eventhough I feel like I let my son down?
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