I am so sorry to hear of the real pain you're going thru. That must be a terrible & scary feeling. I know when my dad died even though i have other family i felt as though a "piece" of myself died too. What a strange & scary feeling that was that overcame me. I explored that thought & have decided i must feel that way because it's your parents that are the only people in this world that somewhat really "have" to care about us-that when they're gone we're on our own in some sense. I try not to think about it, but i can't know how you must feel being without all of them-my heart & prayers go out to you. I am sure you're quite depressed & upset & it's okay to feel that way. I'm so glad to hear you won't hurt yourself though-that is never the answer. You've done a good thing & taken a good step in trying to find others who'll understand. Pain is experienced in many different ways-each of us is different in our response to it i think. It's okay to feel alone & sad considering all of the tragedy you've had. Try reading a novel or some type of hobby-i find watching movies helps me & takes my mind off of it awhile-getting outside in sunshine helps too-vitamin D helps our mind so they say. Hope you're feeling a little better today!

I had to reply.Dear,please do not give up on life! I am 60 years ago and I have lost just about everybody also.I lost my beloved brother 4 years ago and this idiot that I am with does not understand.Life is for the living and I just found out that my older brother was very sick.He was just so sick that the head nurse wanted me to be there,But he told her not to do it.He told her that i had a life to live and that i was a good sister.We had our good times.Remember this--that the people who died are in no more pain and that they would want you to live on.I was never social either and did not really like people until I came here to this wonderful city of seattle.And the people here are just wonderful and now I have got reasons to live.The people here have helped me.There is a song that I listened to.It is called My Way.My Way was written by Paul Anka and Frank Sinatra recorded it,but Elvis Presley sang it in his concert and that is one of the reasons why I am here.Dear,there is a reason to live.Why you tried to do volunteer work? Have you tried to help out at the animal shelter? Why dont you do this.This is what I did.ALways remember this--do not say that you have no reason to live.Someone will always miss you.I miss Frank.

Dear Achiot -
I'm an only child and losing my Mom - the only person who stuck by me my whole life - is the greatest loss. I lost my Dad (who wasn't with us) six months later. So, now I'm orphaned, unmarried, without children. Other family members are out of state - we're not close and some of us currently feuding. I keep wondering who will care for me if I get sick the way I did for my parents. They'll toss me away. No one will visit me or check to see if I'm cared for. It's a sad commentary indeed.