Hi, my name is Cherri. Its been a really hard year for me and my family. Its hard for me to even type the words, but i have lost 3 people that mean alot to me. All within months of each other. First was the father of my two oldest daughters, Dino.He came up missing the day after Christmas in 2006. I was the one who reported him missing. I made missing person flyers and beat on every door of every person that i knew he had contact with. 3 months went by and on March 17th the state police and FBI informed us that they had found Dino, dead from a single gunshot wound and disguarded into the river. Its been devestating for my girls and my self. Less than 2 weeks later, on Dino's birthday, my brother in law came up missing. 10 days later, it was discovered that he had been beaten to death by two young boys. Which was another devestating blow to my family. Then, in the same week, my dad was diagnosed with advanced staged lung cancer. He died on September27th. I have so much hurt and pain, anger and disbelief in me now that i don't even know how to begin to deal with it. I am remarried, and my husband was understanding about my grief for Dino at first. But now it just seems inappropriate to him. He understands about my dad and my brother in law and is supportive. But i feel like i can't talk to anyone about the way i am feeling. I try to keep my chin up for my girls and my niece. But when i am alone, i cry. And its seems like i am doing that alot more than usuall. I feel lost and helpless. Where do i begin?