My mother was killed 1/27/07 by a stray bullet that came throughh my bedroom window. I found her when I came home from work. My mother was not an ordinary mohter. She was one of a kind. At the age of 31, she still treated me like a baby. She took care of me in every way. She was all I ever had that was mine. I don't have any kids. I don't want to be angry but I am because I know God does not make mistakes. I just can't pahtem the way she went. I can't imagine the pain she went through and how scared she probably was. It doesen't seem real to me. I don't know what to do. My mother will never see me have kids or get married. I feel like I'd rather not do do either now cause she won't be here to support me physically. I'm so lost and confused. I'm lonely as hell.
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