So I made it thru the day, I feel like its been a week since I woke up this morning but I survived. Thank you all your your thoughts and prayers. I'm a little pissed off at my work today. I'm one of 2 people who can prepare our daily deposit (i work retail) and the other person is out of town so I went in this morning to do that, then I switched the rest of my shift with another person because she was the only one who could work the rest of the morning for me so I had to work her later shift. I worked for over 10 hours today starting at 6 am and not ending until 10:30!!! And in between I burried my Grampa. I was talking to one of my bosses today and commenting on how long of a day it was and she responded by saying that it was my choice!!! I had every right to just tell tehm I wasn't working today! But instead I went way out of my way and worked the crappiest hours imaginable! It was only my choice because I know how hard it is when someone doesn't show up. My CHOICE would have been not to bury someone I loved, my second choice would have been not to work on the day when I needed to do something that difficult. I did not get a single thank you from anyone! No appreciation what so ever! Next time they can figure it out for themselves. I haven't gotten more than about 4 or 5 hours of sleep in a night in a week, I haven't had a day off in a week and I need to deal with the death of a loved one! The only good thing I can say right now is that I think I've moved out of the foggy denial I've been in and I've moved onto the anger stage. Sorry for venting. I have tomoro off and I'm not sure I will even get out of bed, I just want to sit in my pjs and watch tv and cry all day long. I'm so drained of everything right now! If anyone has accually read this whole thing then thanks for listening. You all have been a big help!
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