Lindsay, I am so sorry for your loss. Everyone deals with grief their way. These things that helped me may or may not help you. I forced myself to take "ME" time. I would go somewhere and cry until I literally could not see! Crying is a natural release. I made myself bewith other people. Even though I wanted to curl up in a ball and die. I read books. Some all the way through others not. I joined a grief group. I wrote down my feelings but then I stopped because after 2 years I thought I should. Well now I am back to writing it helps. It helps to have someone to talk to that has been there. I am here for you if you want. WE can trade feelings stories etc. Just because it is taking me for freaking ever to heal doesn't mean it will you so don't be afraid ok.
Write, read cry scream beat the crap out of your pillow. Learn to release it.
A grief group is a painful but wonderful place to start. Well it was for me. Here in Idaho they would not let me go until it has been so many months after Dan Passed and I understand that now. But didn't then.
hugs from me to you!

It will come sweetie, it takes t-i-m-e, lots of tears, and the love and support of others. Stay close to us, we love ya, and we understandd. Rainbow

Hi lindsay.
I thought like you did and yes it will take a ton of time, yes it get worse, no there is no easy answers. No canned program. Crying does helps. Talking helps too. Friends who understand what you are going through help too. Do something nice for your self. Give your self time to grieve. you can't rush this one. I will only get you frusterated. I'm her eif you need a should to cry on.
Gary

I am very sorry for your loss. Take each moment as it comes...

Your loss is still very new. I lost my beloved 5-1/2 years ago and I still have days I miss him so much and can hardly function. I made a very big mistake. I tried to bury my grief... to pretend he never died.

i was 36 when my 35 yr old husband crossed over. its only been two months, believe me, thats pretty early in the grief process. let me promise you this, i am 56 yrs old now, and i promise you, that, in time, it does ease up a LOT. it will not hurt in time like it does now. this i promise. hugs.

I think this is one of those things that you just have to give yourself permission to take it slow. One minute, one hour, then one day, one week etc. That was the only way I made it to this point.
I reflect often on my loss and what I want out of my own life before my death.
I hide my pain from others because I get so sick of the comments. This site is the best for venting and sharing. I have made friends that I would of never had.
Sad to say the closest friend I made on this site was because we both loss our mom's within days of each other. We often say our moms must of lead us to find each other.
I would not be here if it wasnt for her. ( my ds friend) I was so depressed and when I finally vented my sorrow she was there to listen and help me.