I messaged once before about my dad being ill, doctors are looking for it but they believe it is a cancer but don,t know where it is yet, but they don,t confirm it 100 percent yet but I feel that is what the end result is only because of what they have seen so far and what the tests and symptoms are so far, and how ill my dad seems to be already. I feel still lost and I have a hard time dealing with this and going to work, everyone at work is asking me questions about my dad and its nice that they ask but I feel like I may lose it at work. I have always been the strong one, and I am trying to be strong for my mom too. My relationship with my dad is better now than it has ever been and his relationship with my kids is better than I think I ever had. I feel already like I am losing him or will be losing. The doctors really believe this is liver cancer which has sread to the bile duct, and I don,t know how to help myself and don,t know how to help my mom(who is very private with her emotions too, and is acting like everything is OK and he will be OK and come home)I,m lost and I have no friends that I feel I can impose my burden of this all on. I already lean on my husband a lot and cry on his shoulder but my friends do not understand and its not something I feel they even want to listen to. Anymore advice. I am long winded but just need to get all of this out instead of holding this all in.Thanks Sandra
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