Tonight hubby and I went out to do some grocery shopping and get a little bit of our Christmas shopping done. We got to the grocery store and started putting things we needed into our cart. I was doing ok until we got to the cookie and cracker Isle, and I could NOT go down it. I told hubby im sorry, I can not go down that isle. I am not sure if he thought I had lost my mind or what, and sometimes I ithink I have. But Cayden loved cookies and crackers and everytime I went grocery shopping I would take him down that isle and he would pick out just the ones he wanted. Sometimes it would take him along time to decide what he wanted and tonight, that flashed through my mind. I thought I was going to lose it right there in the grocery store. Has this sort of thing happened to the rest of you? I couldnt go on to do the christmas shopping, after we left the grocery store i just wanted to go home where I could cry. This sort of thing happens to me alot with different things. When I see young children about my sons age playing outside, it is just too much for me to bear. We have a little nephew that will be 4 in january and I love him with all of my heart, BUT... I can not stand to see him playing with Caydens toys. I have put the ones that I am going to keep up in Caydens room and dont allow any kids to go in there, but there are some still in our garage that I agreed the other kids could play with. But when I see them playing with them something inside me gets so angry. I dont want to be this way but I dont know how to change it. Is there something wrong with me?
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