i joined this group last night.. woke up this morning and checked my mail and it was so helpful to read the messages of support. i actually put my home in partial order. just spent 1 1/2 hours with a close friend of my family who spoke at my Dad's service and will be speaking and my Mom's service the day after tomorrow.. that was really good for me. he always says "we'll get through this together, you are not alone." we have taken many sailing vacations together. I am 48 and often feel like i am 4. My partner will be here for the next few days. that will be nice.. i have liked being alone part of the time.. that just is good for me. reading about 9 books on afterlife..I have been on a spiritual quest since I was about 15... I don't really fit with organized religion but have had an awareness of what I call "God" since I was 16. All I care about is people being kind and non-judgemental about each persons unique path. I do not presume to know what anyone elses journey is. I miss my mom and dad so much and talk to them all the time..feeling very nervous about the service..I don't really want to talk to alot of people even though I love them and am grateful for their presence in my parents life..many of them i have knowed for 10 to 40 years so i know they know and have enjoyed our family dynamics. I know they are worrried about me.. thankyou for the kind thoughts and prayers.. I believe thoughts and words have power and can and do effect us.
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