I had a few great days & i didn't think about my dad as much & then today for some unknown reason it's been really bad. I feel this aching pain in my heart that i cannot explain & want him back again. I find myself using little quotes & sayings he said & it makes me feel good to know he's alive in my mind & at the same time painful because i know he's gone & i'll never hear him speak/laugh again. I am afraid i'll forget that great laugh he had-that's what makes me cry is thinking i'll forget. In some ways i wish i would so the pain will leave. I feel a part of me is gone from this earth & a strange feeling of a little more aloneness-that's a very strange feeling for me. Does anyone else ever feel a sense of a little "aloneness" even though they can be sitting with other people?
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