its been 5 months today since my precious 4 yr old cayden was tragically taken away from us. i am constantly thinking about his time in the ambulance and at the hospital when he was alone, he died alone with only drs and nurses by his side not his family. That really bothers me alot. They wouldnt let me go in the ambulance with im and when we got the the hospital they wouldnt let me go in and see him. i cant help but think how alone and afraid he must have felt with no one around him that he knew. this is killing me. i dont know how to overcome these thoughts. I know he knew he was loved but it must have been so horrible for him not having us around, did he wonder where we were and did he think we didnt care about him because we were not there. I can not bear to think about this one more minute but i dont know how to let it go. anyone have these thoughts too?
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