I lost my mom on March 18th, 2007 to cancer at the much too young age of 56 and have been in a state of shock ever since. I don't even believe that it's true sometimes. She was sick for 6 1/2 years, but I thought she would overcome the disease(or at least live with it) and watch me get married and have children someday. I am so saddened by this loss that I can't be happy about anything anymore. On top of this, my boyfriend of three years and I decided to end our relationship. He wasn't giving me the support that I needed and I seemed to be an annoyance with all my "problems". Sometimes I don't even want to live anymore. My mom was my best friend and my biggest supporter. I am thankful that she knows how much I loved her and will continue to love her, but I just wish we had more time together.
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