I just joined this community. I lost my father in Sept. 2006. He was diagnosed with brain cancer in June 2006 and passed away 3 months to the day. He was a very strong man and I never thought that I would have to live the rest of my life without my daddy. I still cannot believe that he is gone. I do have a very hard time walking into the house that he shared with my mother. I cannot stay there for a long period of time because the day he died keeps flooding back to me. I just don\'t know how to handle the feelings that I am feeling. My daddy used to always take care of me and now I feel like I have no one to take care of me. I feel like I am all alone in the world. I still have my mom and my sisters but I never would have thought that my life would have been changed so drastically so quick. I feel like I have been living a dream for the last 6 months and that he is sitting there in his chair when I walk in. That is when it hits again that he is not here. I know that he is watching over me and will always be with me but I still miss him with all of my heart.
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