Used to be a member a long time ago but was doing better until Friday.
Have you ever loved someone but thought they didn't feel the same way? You lose contact and move on, then years later you get back in contact and it turns out that they felt the same way? And still do?
The man I spent years in love with but was too scared to tell him died on Thursday morning, but I didn't find out until Friday morning. Over the last couple of years we spoke weekly, met up occasionally and flirted constantly. If we had just told each other when we were younger...
He was the love of my life and although I love my husband, he is always on my mind. He told me that all his exes look like me, I was his perfect woman. He wanted me to leave my husband and run away with him, he'd take me and my son anywhere I wanted and look after us. I always said no, tried to honour my vows but I think eventually he would have worn me down.
I can't stop crying, I can't believe he's gone and I will never see him again, have him hold me in his arms and tell me how much he's missed me and how beautiful I look.
I know people only remember the good things when peoploe die, but honestly, I don't have any bad memories of him. He always made me smile and feel safe and loved.
He was taken far too young, 30, just when he was getting his life back on track after having mental health issues and I was so proud of him. I'm glad I got to see him again a few weeks ago but regret that postponing our next drink means that I will never see him again, hear his infectious laugh or see the twinkle in his eye when he flirts with me.
Struggling so much to hold it together at work, at home... I keep snapping at people and don't mean to. Cry when certain people ask me how I am. Want to hit someone or something just to feel anything other than this big hole inside me.
I miss him so much
We have been married 25 years, I have lived through his porn addiction, the countless lies, an affair, almost loosing our business of 23 years because of his depression and then immigrating across the world to start all over again, through all of the above I have stuck by his side! The older he gets the more insecure, difficult, moody, irritable and super sensitive. I find myself constantly...
It has been a long time since on this site but I have hit a rough spot and just need support just very hesitant. I guess baby step is the way to go.