We just got home from Port. St. Lucie. Today was Pa’s funeral. I finally said goodbye to my biggest hero today. It was so hard. My grandmother has started transiting to pass on. She did not make it to the celebration of life yesterday or the funeral today. She is very agitated and doesn’t know who anyone is. She has hospice there 24/7. They have upped her morphine and her medication. They are trying to keep her as comfortable as possible. They were married for 35 years. I know she wants to be with him. My heart hurts for my mom right now and for me. I hate this so much. It’s all happening at once. I’m so lost and so numb.
I have a cold, so I am staying at home so I don't get everyone else sick. This isn't what I need right now. This New Years Eve will be my first without my dad (he passed in October). When the clock strikes midnight we will enter a new year. A year where my dad would have turned 80. A year that he will not physically be here.There has been a lot of great things that happened this year, but it is...
I picked up my brother's ashes the other day at the funeral home which is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do and after I was handed the box containing the 4 small urns, the young man had me sign a paper and then told me to have great day. I was stunned and speechless. How about saying something like "I'm so sorry for your loss"?