am approaching my mom's 2 yr death anniv - so many, many losses. i think today, for the very first time, i felt like a orphan, left behind, little in a world of Big People. mom gone almost 2 years, dad completely cognitively wiped by a stroke in january. just kind of came over me like a wave. my partner just began a 10 day out-of-town trip, so that prob triggered the feelings............it's OK - i'd rather feel than not feel. or do things to make me not feel. head-on is better. reality sucks, but better than the opposite. been there, done that - done WITH that.
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