On 11/22/06 I lost my mother and only sibling-my sister and best friend- to a drunk driver. The days have been long and the nights longer. I wake every night at 2am., And when I do sleep I see my sister- she is just standing there looking at me. She looks worried and then I wake. I am the executor of both wills, making my grieving even harder, I have to deal with news cameras, news paper reporters, DA\'s, investigators, and well meaning people who always ask--How are you?-- I want to scream--how would you be-. One minute I think I\'m okay and then it hits me like a ton of bricks, my whole family is gone. I have a make a victims statement- I don\'t know what to say. She got her 1st DUI in 1983, she has 5 children, did the system fail her?I feel sorry for her children, but I don\'t know how I feel about her. It\'s not my place to judge anyone but, if I help condemn her - will my wounds heal?
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