I am just so damn confused! First off so that you know who TC is, he is my boyfriend who passed away 13 months ago. So I am completely in love with TC, not the confusing part, but I am trying to meet new people becuase I'm lonely. Well I meet this one guy. He is friends with my best friend Bryan. His name is Chip (nickname) and well I did the kinda slutting thing of sleeping with him, but I only did it because I started to like him and well its been forever so yea. He is just like TC, even the same name. Both their first names is Thomas, kinda wierd. Well he was telling me about how he always treats his women right and they do him wrong and stuff and I really started to like him. He has a good paying job that is also a manly job, and yes he still lives with his parents but he is only 19 and is saving to move out soon. Plus he is going to night school becuase he works during the day. But he always likes to have fun. Well the more I got to know about him, the more he seemed like TC, and the more I liked him, well now I'm all bummed, because guess what, he doesn't like me like that, and one of the reason's is he is wierded out by the TC thing. I don't get. But yet he likes my best friend who is having sex with Bryan and then he likes this other skinny short chick who doesn't seem into him at all. So he likes two chicks he can't have and doesn't like me just becuase I happen to have a dead boyfriend who I still care about. It's not like I can cheat on him with TC. I don't know what to do. I mean I don't even really want to get into a relationship and I think I am just bummed out becuase I thought for a second that I might just get lucky again and find another great man like TC, but I don't think I'm that lucky. I guess I just got to excited. I finally meet someone who is actaully worth something and they aren't into me. I didn't think it was ever possible to meet anyone like TC and then I did, yea they obviously have their differenes but the basic structure was the same, and it was what I like in a man. I don't know. Maybe I am just overthinking it like I do everything else! Plus I don't even know how to flirt anymore. My friend told me to flirt with him and stuff, but I'm so messed up that everytime I start to like a guy I am just a complete bitch to them. It's always been like that and I don't know how to stop. And like with TC I would prance around in little skirts and stuff but I have gained like 30lbs since he passed away that I am not comfortable prancing around in slutting little outfits, so any flirting tips would be nice to!!
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