I lost my first and only child March 15 2007. Since I have been with my husband his mother has had a family dinner every sunday. Around the same time I had my son, my husbands brother and cousin (who we're very close with) also had Son's and they always come to dinner as well. I've gone to two family dinners since we lost our son both time i left cring and very upset for several days after. I can't hold them. it's even hard to look at them without cring. When i hear them cry i get this unreal urgue to run to them and hold them in my arms but as soon as i enter the room I freez.I dont want their parents to think they hurt me by bring their children around me but I find it hard to express myself. should I stop going and just let my husband go? Am i a horrible person? Before I lost my son i was the "Babysitter" and now i can't see a child without cring. PLEASE HELP ME IF YOU CAN WHAT AM I SUPPOST TO DO?
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