My 18 yr old son died in a horrible car accident. Im worse than ever. I have these really bad "panic attacks" I feel an enormas amount of fear when I have them. I throw up, and can barely speak. I'm 41 yrs old and Im pretty much dead. My son was a massive part of my life. What I don't understand is, how can I feel such fear, when the worse has already happened? The first few months after he was killed I was in complete shock. I could barely cry. I felt rage against anyone that had hurt our family's feelings. I don't know. This is too much pain to bear. Thanks for listening.
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