This past Saturday I went to a memorial service for my husbands uncle who past away on 1-19 and being that my father past away on 1-09-08 I was hesitant to go. My father didnt want a service of any kind when he past away so then we didn't have one for him. After the service I was an emotional mess.I couldn't stop thinking of my father. I told my husband to go to the burial with out me. It was too difficult for me to handle. One thing I do remember was that it was a cloudy day. As I sat near the window in the church a ray of sunshine broke through the clouds and warmed me all across my face at that moment I felt the comfort of my father and knew he was with me. How brief the moment, but at that moment I was happy and felt loved. The only moment of true happiness ive felt in the past weeks. And I can't help feeling cheated in life because I don't have him with me. I don't wan't to be selfish but I miss mim too much.. I love you dad and miss you be safe and happy forever!!
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