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Although it has been 19 yrs since I lost my son, Anton, due to a drive by shooting. I still wish things could be different. My heart is unrepairable or shall I said my heart is forever broken.
I do a lot of wish I, could of, should of but didn't way of thinking. I have not been able to overcome my pain. It has affected me in so many ways. I am bi-polar, which doesn't help me in my pain nor does it calm my soul. I don't know how to mend my heart, I don't know how to live again. I can honestly say the moment I felt Anton take his last breath in my arms was the exact moment my life ended.
I was not to bury my son before me. I was grow old and take care of my grandchildren. Something I will never experience. I could have had another child but I felt like I would be replacing the child I lost and I knew I would be an over over over protective mother and I couldn't do that to a child.
Talking about Anton's death helps and doesn't help. Why won't I allow myself to heal, to live, to looking forward to the future? Cause it is not promised to no one.
I do a lot of wish I, could of, should of but didn't way of thinking. I have not been able to overcome my pain. It has affected me in so many ways. I am bi-polar, which doesn't help me in my pain nor does it calm my soul. I don't know how to mend my heart, I don't know how to live again. I can honestly say the moment I felt Anton take his last breath in my arms was the exact moment my life ended.
I was not to bury my son before me. I was grow old and take care of my grandchildren. Something I will never experience. I could have had another child but I felt like I would be replacing the child I lost and I knew I would be an over over over protective mother and I couldn't do that to a child.
Talking about Anton's death helps and doesn't help. Why won't I allow myself to heal, to live, to looking forward to the future? Cause it is not promised to no one.
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