well 2day is one year since mom passed away. i can't believe i made it. i never thought i would be able to. it hurts so much. and i miss her so much i feel so lost without her. this year has been one of the most painful years of my life. i never thought that losing her would hurt this much but i was wrong. it hurt so much and it is still hurting to this day. i feel like i am going to cry now. plz no one hate me for missing my mom. omg one year. how did a yr pass this fast. i feel like i just lost her yesterday and here i am a year later. the pain is unbelievably painful and hurts so much. how am i going to be able to go on today. and be there for my friend who needs me as well 2day jst as much as i need him. i feel like he is the only one who knows how bad 2day is going to be. he also lost his dad on this day 9 yrs ago so i kno he knows what i muct be feeling...well sorta i guess... i feel like no one can possibly know how much this fucking hurts. for the past two or three months since my spilt with my ex i have not been thinking about mom and if i have i have been hiding how much it hurts me we... u kno what i can not and i will not hide it anymore... i miss my mommy....*yes i said mommy i dnt care im still a kid and im aloud to say stuff like that when im hurting...right? and if not too damn bad* i just dnt think i sld be holdin back these tears anymore...
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